I am cheating on myself with…. myself.
Over the last few months I have learned a lot. I have learned that I sabotage myself. Yes, I do things to sabotage myself because it’s what I know and a result of how I have felt about myself. By cheating on myself, I discovered that I am very insecure with myself and my capabilities. I figure, why let others put me down when I can do that to myself first. That’s exactly what I do. I have become so good at it that now, it’s just become a bad habit that will most likely ruin me.
This is where this blog comes in. After many trials and errors, I have realized that what is happening with food is much of what countless others have done as well and that is self medicating with food. When I am feeling sad, I eat. When I am feeling happy, I have to celebrate and eat. If I am bored, I eat. If I’m anxious, I’ll eat. Common denominator…. eating. Of course I have to eat or I’ll starve myself and that’s not where I want to go with this. So the only other reasonable option is to learn how to eat better and stop the cheating!
How should I do this? It’s not going to be easy that’s for damn sure, but it is something that I feel will help me to remain positive and continue what will be the most life altering and transforming journey. I have decided to flood my twitter account with people who focus on nutrition and fitness. Learning how to change my life and my habits is scary to say the least but I am trying to get in the mindset that if I put focus on good food, good habits, good fitness goals, that I will slowly start to see that I am worth it. I am worth all the effort I will be putting into this and slowly but surely my body will be thanking me.
I have never been selfish with my time and while I am sitting here typing this out, I am feeling so heavy and full. As I sit here, I am uncomfortable. I am uncomfortable feeling like a balloon that will pop at any given second. I want to make better choices. I know I can make better choices. I just have to get the negativity out of my own head. I have to shut that negativity down in a major way. So I look to others in the health and fitness field for support. I look for their encouraging tweets and try to find uplifting and motivating blogs to read that will ultimately prevent me from even thinking about cheating.
They say that if you want to become successful you need to befriend successful people. I’m guessing if you want to become a healthy eater and exercise more, you need to befriend those that eat healthy and those that exercise, right? That’s where my Twitter logic comes from. SO, if you are reading this and you, yourself, have a fitness and/or a healthy living blog, please share it in the comments because I am always trying to find new people and blogs to follow. I need all the support and motivation that I can get and have realized that (aside from the nasty trolls) there are some pretty amazing people online who offer tons of support!!
Of course now the Easter celebration will be here this Sunday which makes for making any major shifts more difficult (we pretty much end up with a sweet table) so for the next day or two, I am going to make one shift. I am going to focus on making sure I have enough fluid. By fluid I mean water, not diet soda! I usually do not take in enough fluids so I am going to make sure that I have six to eight, 8oz glasses of water. I saw that you can use sharpie marker to a water bottle and set a water drinking time goal so I may give that a try. I’ll be trying to replace a bad habit of not drinking a lot during the day with a good habit of drinking the daily recommended amount of water.
I’ll be reporting back after the holiday to share how I did over the weekend and to set my next mini-goal.
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