I went to the doctor and I liked it
The other day I went to the doctor and I liked it.  I haven’t been to the doctor in three years.   I have been putting it off because I hate doctors. The last time I was seen by a doctor, I was told that I’d never lose weight and I should just go on medicine to lower cholesterol.  I internalized that and instead, I never went back. Yesterday was a huge milestone for me. I admitted, confessed and released all and now I am ready to finally move forward.  
 
I had tried many times to lose weight and thought I was going to be able to do it but time and time again I made excuses and fell of the wagon. I am done making excuses. Even though I weighed in at the doctors office, my official weigh in day will be Friday. I also joined Weight Watchers again (just online for now) and have an exercise plan in place. It is my goal to lose at least 10 pounds in the next 3 months. I will also be doing this to avoid taking medication so I have a lot of motivation right now.
 
I also have my orders for my blood work which will be a good starting point and I hope that it’s not too bad. I know it was slightly elevated 3 years ago so that alone scares me! In addition to blood work, I also have my order for my mammogram. I haven’t had that done in 3 years also. Say some prayers as all this testing stuff scares the shit out of me.
 
I have all my vitamins (multi, vit. c, garlic, and something else I forgot, maybe b or d), healthy food options, and a PLAN!!
 
I am going to create a series for my blog so I hope you all will stop by and check in on me and hound me to keep plugging forward. The worst part of me is my lack of motivation, but this time around, I know that losing weight will be so beneficial and it all relates to how horrible I feel on a daily basis! The time for change is today and all I can do it take it one day, one meal at a time.
Tomorrow will mark my weigh in and I will be bare myself to you all because in addition to the doctor, I have to be held accountable.  This is going to be my journey and I am ready to start feeling better.
Some of the things that have been giving me issues that I know losing weight will help alleviate:  knee pain, plantar fasciitis, acid reflux, lack of energy, poor sleep, heart palpitations, lower cholesterol & blood pressure – if that’s an ongoing issue, and lower anxiety.  That is just a quick run down.  In a nut shell, it will make me feel a hell of a lot better without the pounds!
My first reward is a pedicure! 🙂  Once I get to 10 pounds I will be scheduling that bad boy up quick!
I know this post is quite spastic but my brain is on overload and I just can’t wait to get started.